Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Lack of Excitement

Things here in Diet Land have really come to a screeching halt. Although I definitely feel a lot of pressure to "lose weight or die" because of our upcoming wedding, I'm still having a really hard time getting excited about the event.

I know I should be excited, but it's hard. I've received official word that my stepmother and sister are boycotting the affair because of their religious beliefs. I am hurt, The SO is hurt, and even The Kid is hurt.

I never thought I'd hear her say it, but the words, "I really don't want to see Grandma right now," just popped out of The Kid's mouth.

Wow.

So the diet is really pretty much stalled at the moment. I'm trying to do better, but getting motivated is really, really hard. At least the stress level around here has backed off a little For a while there, it looked like all the drama was going to take over everything. Our employment situation has stabilized, and things with The Kid have calmed down to a dull roar.

So maybe, one of these years, I can get back on track with my diet.

I know I should haul my ass outside and go for a walk around the block, but the weather isn't nice enough to really motivate me, and the idea of hoofin' it on the treadmill in the garage doesn't sound like much fun, either. I know I should also get out there and work out with the home gym we bought a few months ago, but it all seems so hard.

At the moment, I feel pretty proud of myself that I've managed to resist eating all the ice cream in the house. I know that's not really good enough, but at least it's better than nothing.

I'm having a really hard time getting motivated with much of anything. I have extra projects to do for work, and I don't feel like doing them. I am supposed to be exercising, but I don't feel like it. The house still needs a good Spring cleaning (our usual Passover scrub-down was lackluster at best) and I am having a hard time finding the energy to care.

About the only thing that I have been able to get done is daily practice for my music lessons. I guess that's an improvement, because for a while there I wasn't even able to find time to do that.

If I was going to sum up my life in one word it would be: bleah.

But hey, I haven't gained all my weight back, so that's better than nothing. Right?

Right!

1 comment:

jj said...

I'd say not gaining the weight back is a huge accomplishment! I go through phases (am forcing myself out of one right now, in fact) just like you're going through and it's awful, I know. Sometimes nothing seems to work, but keep the faith!