55 Down

This morning, I stepped on the scale and the numbers were down again -- 206.6 lbs, for a total weight lost of 55 lbs.

I told an online friend of mine and her response was, Good job!  That's awesome.

People tell me that losing 55 lbs is a lot of weight, but it doesn't seem like that much of an accomplishment.  When I look in the mirror, I still see fat.  Although I am able to wear smaller clothes, I still don't look very good. In terms of the total amount of weight I have to lose, I'm not even at the halfway point yet.

I am trying hard to see this as the achievement that it is.  I've lost a lot of weight.  Still, it's pretty daunting to think that I still have over 88 lbs to go.

By the time I lose all this weight, I will have lost the weight of an entire person.

Trending in the Right Direction

I know I've been terrible about posting here, and I guess I don't really have a good excuse other than the very lame, "I've been busy."

And yes, I've been busy, but that's not really all of it.

Much has changed since my last post, and things seem to be trending in the right direction.

My weight is down, though I haven't really been trying very hard.  The furnace didn't die, and the STBX calmed down and found a job.

The STBX will now be referred to as the "ex." We signed our religious divorce papers, so as far as I'm concerned, the relationship is over.  We are still waiting on the civil divorce proceeding, since remaining married for just a bit longer will make it easier and cheaper for me to maintain my health insurance coverage.

I'm glad for that, because even though I've lost over 50 pounds, I'm still too fat to qualify for a standard individual health insurance policy.  Since the ex has decided to leave our business as well as our marriage, it means that the business will switch to a sole proprietorship with no employees and I will lose eligibility for group, guaranteed-issue, health insurance.

Now, the plus is that I'm eligible to be covered under the ex's new insurance at work.  Once we file for divorce, I'll continue to carry it under COBRA, at least until the new insurance rules take effect here in California in January 2014.

Although some people have a lot negative to say about the new Obamacare health insurance rules, it will help me.  I'll be able to buy a guaranteed-issue policy at standard rates, regardless of my weight.

Speaking of my weight, I'm down a bit.  This morning I was 209 lbs. I'm still obese, but I've managed to drop a total of three pant sizes from my top weight.  I've gone from barely being able to slip into a size 24 to noticing that my size 18s are starting to get a little loose.

I'd say things are trending in the right direction.  The ex is sleeping on the sofa and will move out (along with The Kid) as soon as the school year finishes.  My weight is still dropping, even though I'm not trying very hard, given all the turmoil in my life.

I guess I'm in pretty good shape for the shape I'm in.